Wednesday, May 25, 2011

Finales......


This has been the week of some finales for me. First Dancing with the Stars. I loved Hines Ward from the beginning and he won, but kudos to Kirstie Alley, who came in 2nd. She is 60 and did things I can only dream of and lost half of herself in the process. Mondays and Tuesdays will be quiet now for me. I always have a little DWTS withdrawal pains the following week.

Speaking of withdrawals, Lady O, Oprah's last show was today. I have saved the show to watch it again sometime because her message was so powerful. When it was over Parke told me, let out Bev, he knew I was on the verge of tears.

A lot of what she said hit home for me today. She said "Everybody has a calling, and your real job in life is to find it." I have been questioning my calling for sometime. Especially since I have been on a partial layoff. I wonder sometimes what I would do if I no longer had my job. What direction would I turn and what is my true calling, because it might not even be the job that I do anyway.

Oprah talked about energy, gratitude, God and love. She said in the beginning, "It is no coincidence that I always wanted to be a teacher. I ended up with the greatest classroom in the world." Well today she was a teacher, but she also could of been a pretty good preacher.

She said "I've talked to nearly 30,000 people on this show, and all 30,000 had one thing in common -- they all wanted validation. ... They want to know, do you hear me? Do you see me? Does what I say mean anything to you?" That moved me. I think all my life I have been looking for some sort of validation. And when I had validation in a certain areas, they where fleeting. I guess in someways that's life, it changes, you are a daughter one day and a mother the next. So life becomes a series of validations. This blog is a validation for me, it's my voice, or thoughts being catapulted into cyberspace. I become validated when I check the stats to see how many people read it. I get excited when I see it is more than one, LOL!!!

I think today I will try to start being a better me. A beginning in all the endings. I want to start a gratitude journal, because sometimes, especially late at night, my mind remembers all the negatives, and forgets all the positive things that happened to me that day. I want to be a healthier me, of course I have wanted this for years, but I seem to think that it is not within my reach, and I need to try figure out why I think like that. I want to be a more peaceful me, I have been working on this, but I am a work in progress on that one. And I want to be happy and I want to spread happiness and joy where ever I am.

Oprah said, "There's a difference between thinking you deserve to be happy and knowing that you are worthy of being happy. Your being alive makes worthiness your birthright. You alone are enough." So everyone....be happy.

Well, even with all these endings life will still go on. There is still OWN, I am sure we will see Oprah there.

At the end she said, someone asked her if this was bittersweet for her and she said, " There is no bitter only sweet".....and that's Another day in Catasauqua.